Dear diary,

Maintaining a healthy lifestyle is something that I have such a hard time sticking to over the years. A fitness trainer once told me “You want to lose weight? Stop eating shite! Simple as that!”. I mean, yeah Steve, we can say put down the doughnut or fried chicken but I am years deep into a bad habit 😒

I started going to the gym at the age of 16 and fell into a typical routine. Stopping and restarting. I must have joined up to 7 gyms and some of these multiple times over years. I have paid 3 people to become my personal trainer and attended around 15 classes. Just as I get in to my stride, I fall off. Whether it be a weekend away, a bad period, an injury, once I stop going I find it hard to get back into the rhythm.

Back end of 2019 to around end of Feb 2020, I was going to the gym 3 times a week. I would push myself to go after work, even when I was shattered and not in the mood whatsoever, id force myself into my gym leggings and get a sweat on.

I have mentioned in a previous post that I have been striving to get the abs I oh so desire, let me tell you, months down the line I have managed to acquire an extra chin and 2 rolls on my stomach. Even my ankles are cankles these days.

I looked in the mirror after getting out of the shower the other day and thought enough is enough now. I actually don’t mind if my stomach isn’t flat, but its a problem when my clothes don’t fit. I do not have the funds to buy a whole new wardrobe 😒😂 so, I got my stretch on and made up a 40 minute work out. I did some work with resistant bands and core work outs. I did the first exercise and couldn’t even get my legs up 😂. I felt so weak! I honestly made myself laugh because how am I 31 and not even able to lift one leg off the floor. Don’t get me started on the core exercises. I have zero core strength. Have you ever done a plank or a sit up and found yourself shaking uncontrollably like you’ve been left in sub zero temperatures? Well, that was me. I gave myself a target of sit ups and I couldn’t even do a quarter of that without stopping. Once the exercises were completed, I just rolled over on the floor. “OW, I CAN’T DO THIS, OOOW” is all the neighbours heard. Not that they knocked on to see if I was ok 👀.

I’ve woken up this morning feeling an ache in my lower back and my hips. Now, yesterdays workout session was by no means perfect, however, I am on (another) mission to keep this up and regain strength and hopefully drop at least 9 pounds. I am upping my water intake and trying to be more plant based with my diet. I won’t be completely vegan anytime soon but small, small steps. Not that we all have to be vegan to be strong and healthy, it’s a personal choice for myself.

I am super confident I can at least do the bare minimum everyday and hopefully by the time I need to put my jeans on again, I won’t cut off my blood circulation from the belly button down 😩😁.

Love and positive vibes to all x