Dear diary,

Who else has been using this time to find new hobbies or taking the leap to pursue a passion that was already there?

Since the world has been on lockdown I have found myself doing new things and starting new hobbies….but not finishing.

I began with sign language. I got to week 4 and just stopped. I started a counselling course, I stopped after week 2. I began going for morning walks and I got up early 3 times before I decided a lie in was better for me.

That’s typical for me. Always start but never finish.

Now though, I am finally following through with plans I have created and I feel so scared. The feeling of failure is luring in the back of my mind and people whispering and laughing at my failure is lingering over my head. Why? Because I put far too much pressure on myself and because I care about what people think and I shouldn’t!!!

I would rather try then never try. I want to live a life with no regrets and if I do fail, so what? It is a learning experience however, who said I will fail?. Look at Will Smith. After he found fame on the Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air , he became bankrupt and lost everything. He is now one of the highest paid actors in the world. J.K Rowling’s manuscripts were rejected by 12 publishers. Need I say more.

If anyone is scared of pursuing something they really want to do, don’t be! An old friend once told me, “everything you want in life is on the other side of fear”.

I’ll leave that with you 🙂