Dear diary,

Since I was in my mid 20’s, all I’ve heard is “When are you going to have kids?” “If you don’t hurry up, you’ll miss your chance” “So and so has some already”….the list goes on.

I’m 32 and I still have no children.

Now all I hear is “You’re running out of time”, “If you don’t hurry up, he will leave you”, “I want grandkids”

I know women who are 37 and have just had a baby. I know someone who’s Mum didn’t have her until she was 40. I know people who, point blank, do not want children. End of.

Why does society put pressure on us to have children by a certain age?

What is the big rush?

Why does being in your 20’s mean you will be a better parent?

When I was younger, a lot younger, I wanted to be married by 20 and be a parent by 25. I wanted to have the same age gap between me and my mum, with my children.

By the time I was 19, I knew the first ship (getting married) would sail right past me rapidly but I still had high hopes for being a parent by 25.

I put pressure on myself and felt so heartbroken that I hadn’t lived up to the expectations that I and everyone else had set out for me.

According to my trusty internet searches, getting pregnant after 35 is considered extremely risky and that made me feel the pressure more.

But after speaking to several people, whether they are medical professionals, family members or friends of a friend, it’s totally normal for women above the age of 30 to have beautiful, safe pregnancies.

Hindsight is a wonderful thing. Looking back on my life so far, I have been able to do so much! I’ve travelled a lot, I’ve been able to move away twice, I can get up and go whenever I please and not have to worry about a mini me to sort out before I go.

Not saying you can’t do any of that with children, I am just saying, for me, I’ve been able to do what I want, when I want and I’ve loved it!

Now I’m in love and cannot wait to continue my life with my Bear so all those selfish feelings I had, are being put on the back burner.

I cannot wait for the day when I can surprise Bear and let him know we are going to be parents.

I can’t wait to let my parents know they will be grandparents!

But until then, I’ll keep on being patient and enjoying my life until my mini me comes and changes my life for the better.

Don’t let people dictate your life! Everything will happen when the time is right 😘❤️ Just keep positive!

xoxo